and we live in a beautiful world yeah we do

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2005-11-17T06:26:00.000-08:00

Moving! To Lj-dom. If you are actually interested in observing how I continue to not update ask me.
So, last words. Realised that I've never posted up the song lyrics from which the title of the blog's taken from.

Don't Panic
Coldplay

Bones, sinking like stones,
All that we fought for,
Homes, places we've grown,
All of us are done for.

And we live in a beautiful world,
Yeah we do, yeah we do,
We live in a beautiful world,

Bones, sinking like stones,
All that we fought for,
And homes, places we've grown,
All of us are done for.

And we live in a beautiful world,
Yeah we do, yeah we do,
We live in a beautiful world.

Here we go, here we go
And we live in a beautiful world,
Yeah we do, yeah we do,
We live in a beautiful world.

Oh, all that I know,
There's nothing here to run from,
'Cause everybody here's got somebody to lean on.

Peace out.

2005-09-18T02:33:00.000-07:00

Teach me to live
Teach me to laugh
Teach me to love
Teach me to care

Do you want to start over again?
Take me and break me open.
Because I need to know there's a bigger plan out there. I need to think this all through.

Come on ego you fool,
I see your apparition in the doorway
Beckoning me, promising to be here
When the planet lets me down, you'll still be around
-Apparition, No need for a name

post mpp and everything.

2005-08-18T07:08:00.000-07:00

i'm a let down in person. don't expect things of me. because when it comes to it, i can't deliver and i'm just not good enough. i go round and round and it comes back down to that.

2005-07-18T05:56:00.000-07:00

i wonder if you run a thousand miles and keep running into the same wall one day will you run it down?
erosion or graffiti on your body.
and CAN YOU PAINT THE SKY YELLOW - just more pretentious and scared
maybe PEEL OFF THE PAINT AS WELL- just less confused
don't ask- our everything falls apart with daily offers

go ny track and field.

2005-07-16T17:48:00.000-07:00

just found the one of the worst sites i have ever browsed.

6 MILLION JEWS. IT WAS SYSTEMATIC GENOCIDE. isn't the term GENOCIDE ITSELF CLEAR ENOUGH ALREADY.
HE WOULD HAVE LABELED YOU AS SUBHUMAN.

2005-07-06T05:27:00.000-07:00

JIAYOU FOR THE NATIONALS!
(: go ny track and field!
it's been a long way getting here - just go for what you want
starts tomorrow- BEST OF LUCK TO THE 400m and 3000m pple!
we'll do it!

(and jiayou to youth day comm! b10 <3)

2005-06-25T04:17:00.000-07:00

this routine riot.
i'll be that girl in the renoir painting- the one the Glass Man never could paint. the girl holding the glass.
cos i prefer the surreality of that paris to this
follow the blue arrows
but if i rush back and open the door i don't know if i'd see anything.

end of hols and same conclusion.

and it'll take more than this to do anything.

It's a place we've never been,
It's a waste to keep it in
It means little to you but the world to me

I'd run away if I could help it

But I can't remember to forget your face

-tokyo rose

love the song.

2005-06-23T04:43:00.000-07:00

i love my batch. i love you all very very much. batch ten. batch X- we're all superheroes. remember that. we will go far as a batch. we will. *hugs*. jiayou darlings- we're going all the way.

batch 10 <3

2005-06-08T07:57:00.000-07:00

(a very quick note before my mother starts chasing me)
YOUTH PROJECT 2005
much love to batch 10
logistics comm for youth project 2005- yall really rock and you guys have put so much
well it's here- today was day 1. next two days to go- JIAYOU
especially to biqi and xinying *hugs* i/cs- you guys have really put in an omg amount of effort, you've done just SO much- we're cheering for you! all of us know how much you've done for this.
i'm in csm and all so haven't really been involved but anyway LOVE BATCH 10

(and on a long d note- YES joy i hear it. hehe.)

2005-05-21T04:49:00.000-07:00

my gosh. i'm actually updating. * yes gasp, goosp, general amazement* it's been ages. well, basically all of term 2- which feels like ages. now i'm finally posting, it feels weird, like i should be doing something else. i don't really know where to start. this is supposed to be a very long post because 1. it extends throughout term 2 and 2. it's probably going to be rotting up here till the end of the june hols (be warned). but for some reason i can't think of anything to type. this year's been mad. that's stating the obvious really. and it's not about to get any better and you know it.
i am torn between loving and hating the weather. it's the perfect kind of cool grey weather that makes you feel like running through the rain. sometimes feel like it's the perfect backdrop for coldplay. but. it's been raining too much and it's disrupted training. bleah.
NATIONALS ARE IN ABOUT ONE AND A HALF MONTHS. 8th july, get it down on your diaries. freaking out already. long d, yes we're really unlucky this year- y'all take care of yourselves. don't do anything stupid now- you can't afford to. jiayou darlings (: we're going to make it good this year, despite everything.
a belated happy birthday to chu, jan and gwen! *hugs* and an advanced happy birthday to qian and michy!
STAR WARS EPISODE III IS OUT (: oh my oh my this here anakin guyyyyy
may be vader some day later now--
(okay so you knew that already but still hehe. do you feel the disturbance in the force)

went to watch cash on delivery on friday with gwen and zhi, found xian and mree there too. zhi was happily promoting vj. (at hc they still have 'tiptoe through the tombstones' postcards and my sis' design for how the other half loves! and their elddfs has a FILM section.) love the main actor. zhi knows him! after the show we were hanging around waiting to see the actors and after a while i noticed a pattern. we were kind of in a circle. zhi knows the main actor-bernard- and xian knows this actress, so they were talking. and slowly as you look round the circle, you see capcapcapcapcap. then you come to gwen and me, non cap. hehe. oh well. anyway gwen and i decided we are going to make a point of watching a production or a movie at least once every 2 months.
it's times like that when these questions start going round your head. someday, someday, SOMEDAY I WILL FINALLY HAVE A PRODUCTION. a comedy, with a VERY SHARP POINT. and maybe sporks. we're doing our first thing at FOA, hopefully. we're submitting the proposal on tuesday. i love theatre do you know. and i wonder if i'll ever get anywhere with that love.
today went for the rg carnival with xin and gwen. saw audrye and other exrgp people. we got a super reduced tour of the school thanks to chara (: ("block, track, field." "pavilion. where teachers talk to students about homework") miss the people from rgs. i really want that reunion thing to happen. mm. went for the paym tea reception thing in the afternoon.

in other (old) news
CSM rocked majorly (: the 800m was woohoo- a load of us clocked pbs. finally broke the 2.40 barrier! so it's not exactly what i want just yet, a 2.39, but still meant a lot. and then the teachers' telematch! prog com 2005! the most on com. hehe. (we better have our prog com party. soon.) 3 months of work for the six of us (: and it's over! i think i'm going to miss csm. we saw ms tan running! 8 by 50m! i love my coach!

we're into mpp! and now our bill is majorly screwed. (but we shall jiayou and go for it anyway) but our mentors are really good. we have two for the price of one! because our mentor has a girlfriend who's also a lawyer. they are both terribly intellectual and witty, giving us inferiority complexes but nevermind! and she's incredibly pretty.

and on a random note the reporting in the straits times really irks me.
strange things like self censorship. mm.
okay. i may update some time in the future. note the 'may'.

Sing me something soft
Sad and delicate
Or loud and out of key
Sing me anything
-existentialism on prom night
straylight run

2005-03-18T21:18:00.000-08:00

GOOD LUCK FOR THE SPH
nytrack (: blaze the track. jiayou everybody.

so scared about it. hope i don't screw up.
good though. it means i can forget about other stuff that i've been thinking about way too much and letting myself screw myself up again and just focus on the compt.
go and run.

just sent in the application for TNS- feel incredibly inexperienced filling in -or trying to fill in- the form. really excited bout it. theatresque too, sooner the better. i can't find the obs junior instructor thing online though.

i need to listen to more music. i need to get more rock. hard, loud rock. old school would be fine. any type of music actually. and i need to read. write. watch. listen. process. think. wandering in borders with jan, looking at all the books, there's so much to find out. like the beat movement, i want to go find out about that. and all these things that we don't have time to do. feel so closeted.
walking out of borders after that, discovered that i have a thing for twilight. walking home, same for the dark.

but for now i'll run. i'll run the whole thing out of my head.

obss!

2005-03-12T23:29:00.000-08:00

OBS ROCKED. BIG TIME. (:
COUSTEAUUU! <3 my watch!
outward bound- "to serve to strive and not to yield"
climb trek kayak cook pitch tent get bitten -hehe- find out about yourself and others.
falling in love with nature, and the whole place because it's all just so unurbanised.
looking at the sky, seeing the stars, smelling the sea.
do the impossible. or try at least.
SO KEEP OUTWARD BOUND!
(:

6th march

2005-03-05T23:14:00.000-08:00

YAY! IT'S THE END OF TERM!
OFF TO OBS TOMORROWWW! OBSOBSOBS! wheeeee!
I WANT TO BE IN MOBILE!
SUHUI: yes see i update! hehe. THANKYOU for everything and much loveeeee back!
JAN: when you go away don't look back. leave me once and i'll be fine, leave me twice i'll make you mine- all american rejects 'DON'T LEAVE ME' the music!
GENIE: MISS YOU.
JOY: hahah. never be able to live up to you. really happy you've found your focus again! (: want to run with you haha. trailblazer. NYLONGD (:

mhmmm! going to run later! missing training next week because of obs. the sph is second weekend march hols. well JIAYOU DARLINGS!
AND HISTORY DRAMA- our juniors get $2000 IF THEY WIN. TOP FIVE MINIMUM $500. AND TOP TEN FINALISTS ALL GET THE NECESSARY STAGE TRAINING. THIS IS UNFAIR.
I WANT TO DO IT AGAIN. THIS YEARRRR. hehe. NVM WE SHALL HELP OUR JUNIORS.
and theatresqueeee shall have funky productions!

punk rock princess. something corporate

19th feb

2005-02-19T03:37:00.000-08:00

Let's get drunk
You can drive us to the harbor
Wish upon a star but
Do you know what stars are?
Balls of fire, burning up the black space
Falling from the landscape
Exploding in the face of God
Let's get crazy,
Talk about our big plans
Places that you're going
Places that I haven't been
Build my walls up
Concrete castle
Keep this kingdom free of hassle, yeah
Yeah
Yeah
But I heard sound, echo in the emptiness
All around, but you can't change this loneliness
Look at what you've found, I'm falling down
-down.
haven't posted up here for ages, wonder why. really should be doing homework or one of the other million and one things, but just felt like crapping hahaha.
all the small things that keep us going. do a random act of love. hug someone. leave them a note. you know how much it means to know someone cares.
love to council, esp batch 10. we're gonna make it darlings. we need a batch meeting and soon.
love to csi, love to my sac com, love to csm ot, esp prog com, jiaen and pong.
love to longd. but yall come in later.
love to the people in my class- esp jan. jan love you to bits. the photos are ready btw. and you oweee me the shell pics. and sarah and qian. i love our seating arrangement. feel like talking to jan. but then you wouldn't get the track stuff would you darl. feel like talking to you anyway. or genie. or gwen. or rachel. or sarah.

to long d
i love you guys to bits, i just hope you know it. same for track in general but yeah to you guys especially.
scared as hell for you, but we 're gonna make it. but we'll only make it if everyone puts in everything they've got. i need to talk to all of you and soon. just want all of you to understand what it means to be in long d, and to push all the way. you guys mean so much to me. don't do anything stupid, any of you. wenrui! get well soon (: suhui! <3!and ailin! lovelove you! and joy. we need you we really do. keep rocking. but if there's anything just say it. know you're really stressed to.
and i'm missing genie.

was talking to ailin at training. which deserves this huge post all to itself what with the rain. it was aims for this year- train hard. work hard. put best into council. get a life out of school. hehe maybe i shall accept the offer of sunday morning runs.

many apologies. feel free to ignore this post cos it's full of insecure teenage angst.

there's just not enough time. random things taken from random songs
this city's made us crazy and we must get out.
leave this academic factory.
and if you can be bothered
go check in the dark of the matinee. and we'll burn this city on the way out.

but i'll just sit up here and watch the city lights burn
till i find out why why why why
in a champagne supernova in the sky
cos after all
you're my wonderwall

2005-01-01T04:46:00.000-08:00

2005. it's here.
it's our year.
whether we're still scared or not.

nezzy sent me these beautiful lyrics some time back. some of it's below.
A world that moves with its fears,
in all directions, is my generation,
my generation is so and so am I,
with the same illusions and the same dreams,
with its loves,
you know that another one like this will be not be the same.

somehow, between packing for the tsunami, going for a council thing at jurong east, cheering for ny's modern dance (you guys go), finishing up homework, and other things- i finally realised that this was it.
and that another like this will not be the same.
and we're still living in a beautiful world. just like coldplay said.

lovelist!

2004-12-26T04:30:00.000-08:00

this is a big thanks out to my friends who've been there this year. told some of you guys already what i want to say to you but here it is again. don't want to drift away from any of you, but it's going to be hard next year. especially with all the changes. if we aren't that close next year, then just thank you for the past year, or the two years, or (for some of you) the five years. or more.

you always took me with a smile when i was down
memories of everything that blew through
-on mercury by the red hot chili peppers

jan: HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII JANNN! haha. you're the girl that i do all that weird stuff i'ld never dare to do with anyone else! . like well our 'HIII' thing :P only got to know you this year and i'm so glad i did. seriously. thanks for being a really great friend, for being so genuine all the time, and (despite the cliche) for being you! for being so absolutely jan! around you all this random nice stuff becomes possible (: like our walks that no one else seems to get, getting lost on the way to the beach(and walking in the wrong way). i think your book idea is cool! help me pick an address someday! just talking about everything, finding out that i'm not the only one with some of my thoughts, thanks for it all and all the hugs, all the shared popcorn, and for always asking me to be basically me (and you're never afraid to be you.) and all the guilt trips (though i don't know why i'm thanking you for that. you're too good at it.) and for being so HYPER AND ENTHU about things, the really small things (the sheer disneyness of movies!) and the really big ones too. *hug*

rachel: my irs partner and batch ! your postcard's done! i bet you're cringing at the spelling and punctuation (or rather, the lack thereof) on my blog. haha. anyway, thanks for being there for a whole year or more. with bad associations, and endless cries of 'chel! irs!' aren't you proud of our project! haha. thanks for being so opposite of me, for always destressing me, for being so happy and outgoing. and for being a person who goes deep and proves that we should never just take first impressions. (:

genie: ahh you're going ): i've said this over and over again. haha. well LOVE. you've been there two years for me, track events, draggin you to various productions, everything. the works. best of luck at nus, and keep the NY LONG DISTANCE spirit burning in you always. you'll go a long way so never give up. and always rmbr all you've gone through in training hahaha if the longd blog gets off the ground tell me (: keep in touch!

lysh: YOU'RE BACK! haha. my other 13ner 11ner tracker! who joined ld this year. thanks for being so sweet and understanding and being such a morally courageous person- you really stand by what you believe in and i really respect you for that. and thanks for being in touch with your inner child while being able to be a mature person. jiayou with training! you CAN do it. it's going to be hard to get back into training, and i think you know it. but rmbr- long dist is all about never giving up no matter what. and if it didn't hurt, would there be a point in training? (: i know you've got it in you, you're really determined. all the way! and don't get depresed about that person. *hugs*

fo: haha my cynical rebel of a slacker (who is ACTUALLY a highyflyer but refuses to admit it). JUST YOU WAIT, i'll get you into the BOM and then you'll know! haha joking (you hope! -evil grin-) RMBR THAT THEATRE! in TEN YEARS TIME! yep well what can i say? theatresque, lit seminar, being saboed together for school promo, talking (our one philosopical debate!), our lady peace, dragging you along to various things. thank you so much for submitting to all that stuff. (:

nezzy: NEZZY! thank you for being such a HAPPY person! you're really always there to care about everything and i want you to know that it just means so much to me. thank you for helping to get that long face off of me (i know you see it far too much) and for those letters and for helping me sort out some stuff. and for being so supportive! -dying in irs, choral night etc-you're really really special and i don't think i'll ever find someone who can get up to your level. you've been a great monitress this year. and, of course, there's theatresque! iUMBRELLAS! it will work out and then UMBRELLAS SHALL TAKE OVER THE WORLD!

gwen: for all the *hugs* and for just caring so much for everyone. i really appreciate all the times you've sat there and listened, or comforted someone, or me. it makes a world of difference, even if you don't see it sometimes cos we don't know how to tell you. i hope you're going to have a great 05 whatever you choose to do. (: don't give up on us. to quote coldplay 'we live in a beautiful world, yeah we do'. i know you love that song and i do too! it's out there, and it's here with us even when we don't see it all the time. and again *hug*.

xin: xin you're so nice. thanks for being there to talk to and for being encouraging, and giving feedback and speaking out when you don't like something. and to watch movies with fun stuff! and sitting next to me during art- you're good- and good luck with the art next year! (:

sarah: sawah! how can i start? you're always always always there to just listen to all my crap. you're really sweet. *hug* thanks for that. really like talking to you. and all the hugs! you help me so much. and thanks for listening especially about well you know and helping me when i'm like all confused about it. and thanks for the songs! you have good taste in music- praise chorus! love you. you help hold people together. that's just so important. and i know you'll make it next year. (:

gua khee: hey gua! you're such a nice down to earth person who's always frank and ready to speak her mind, and that's really special! don't change that! thanks for all the honest feedback. and thanks for all talks about stuff, and for freaking out together about lit seminar. MPP! don't back out on me!

leen: my fellow paikei! 'wahhh choibu!' hahaha we are THE original ac posers. all the others simply can't cut it (: hehe. k anyway, thanks for being there to cram for tests with and to talk to and for being enthu about class stuff! you were a real help in choral night. and really like you cos you don't judge or treat people with labels and everything. don't change that. (:

eve: thanks for being so focused in everything you do -choral night, dance night, any class event- and for helping out so much in loads of stuff. you cope really well, but still, chill k? and let us know if you ever need help. don't keep it all inside. (:

jo: the person i should know well, but don't. 4i 5h 6h and now 2/13*poiiii*! thanks for being there and not giving up on me despite how weird i can be. wish i talked to you more this year. oh well we've got two more years!

hanny: my cute daughter! you really are so cute!*patpatpat* hehe. but you see, you're not just cute. thanks for being so nice and random and -though i don't know why i'm thanking you for this- the squishing and helping to destress me. and believing in me and stuff.

weiwei: ziwei! thanks for caring about the class, you were a great ast monitress. but you need to learn to chill! don't stress so much! you're a nice random person too! (haha in fact all the five of you are nice random people!) and do not turn anorexic on us. please. you're chiooo already! and you will not fail. (: the sixth variety. *hugs*

adela, adeline and henghui: thanks for all the random stuff! like i said, all five of you are such nice RANDOM people! *patpatpatpatpatpatpat* all of youu! (: best of luck next year! and no squishing!

chu, amanda, sara, nat and all the other 13ners: thanks for making 2/13 a brighter place. (:

to all the 11-ers and 12-vers too! all the history drama people- ooh don't you just love going high on opium? (: and don't you just love the ny audi! haha. especially people like
sammi: my twinnnnn! originally i was going to put you with the trackers later butthen decided to put you here in case you got fed up of scrolling. haha. my prooo twin who swims and runs (: thanks for being a great friend! love youuuuu!
eugi: all our programme booklet efforts came to naught. oh well. haha thanks for being my squishy triplet!
cheryl: haven't talked to you that much this year. sad.. oh well thanks anyway, you've been a great friend esp in sec1 (: best of luck in whatever you do.
zhihui: my governor! you're off to vj. luckily vj. haha well, all the best there! keep on writing! and thanks for being your outspoken self! i rmbr you were the head devil in sec1 for our cl choral night haha
meikeen: ahh you're leaving too! you're like the only other one who went from rosyth to rgp to ny! and now you're going... well thanks for it all, and good luck off at nj!
jing: for all those tour guiding sessions and doing our weird psgl sessions together! haha our really weird psgl sessions. and gonna miss doing all the psgl stuff with you. thanks, you're a really nice supportive person! (:
mag: for being such a nice person and all the hugs! and letting me ramble off at you after xcountry and everything!
michy you come later with council!

and now for the trackers. LOVE NYTRACK AND FIELD. we're gonna ROCK 2005. sprints jumps throws and esp my beloved LONG DIST DARLS. to my batch of s2s, like shan ru, sarah... (: want to get to know all of you better *hugs*

TRAILBLAZERS: longdist you guys leave trails in me too. can't begin to say how much you all mean to me. we're going to break down all those stupid barriers between us or in our way, and we're going to go all the way. cos that's what we're all about- going the distance.

to my sec4 seniors: we'll miss you! thanks so much once again! sharon chinyen weiwei matilda siyou yueting kat (:

to the sec3s: really want to get to know you guys a lot better next year. its your year next year! the sec4 year! its yours for the taking, so go take it.

especially out to joy: thanks for being the best longdist capt out, pushing us to be what we can and believing in us. you really have that passion, and just hope that i won't let you down as a junior or anything. (:

-i skip MY BATCH first (: -

sec1s: my juniors. i know all of you have got it in you, and that all of you can and will live up to what we expect of longdist. believe in you guys, just like the rest of long d, and i hope you guys believe in yourself too. don't ever give up. couple of us are gonna talk to you guys in 05, and i hope you'll listen. but basically, long dist is all about the determination and the dedication. and i hope you all care for long dist deep down. feel the long-dist spirit? you should. and for those who're trying their best like jolyn (: keep at it!

MY BATCH!
lsyh and gen, you guys should have seen your msg already. and sammi! (: *hugs* out to yall. grace: come and train with us! thanks for running xcountry with us this year!

ailin and wenrui!
(my fellow longdist longdist-ers! the xcntry, 800.1500. 3000. pple!)
you two have like seen me through all my screwups in the nationals and everything. thanks so much.
wenrui: vice capt of cdiv of the entire track and field! i'm so so so proud of you! you're gonna get so far (: you're got the drive, and you push yourself so hard without stopping, and you always give you 110% into training. ignore joy's crap about the girl who can't stop running. its a goood thing! and believe me, we all love you for it. thanks for understanding what its like to want to meet your own expectations and not just other people's. ailin and me want to tell you this 'stop looking back'. in training, be it work out or anything, go by your own pace dear! don't wait for anyone. just go and do just what you do best. (: and thanks for being such a great friend. ahh my fellow 800 and 1500 m runner! haha but i sense you'll be going over to 400m hurdles and following sharon!haha. and yes. eat! don't get any eating disorders! haha. just take care of yourself k darling? *hugs*

ailin: my fellow runner and councilmate! and next year you'll be like next doors during school!ahh love you! you look so innocent but actually... haha k nvm. thanks for being so fun and lame and in touch with your inner self. you cope with everything so well! thanks for being there to run with, and chase after joy and wenrui with, and to answer my stupid questions about stuff. you're really such a great support in my life. thanks for standing by me through the screwups like this years nat 1500m. i can't imagine what trainings and competitions would be like without you and wen rui. (: *hugs*

peggy, suhui, gaverielle
(middle dist! and hurdles!)
gav: come for trainnnninggg! mustmustmustmustmustmust come k! thanks for everything!
peggy: thanks for being so focused during trainings, but also being really friendly and a great friend. (: and eat!
suhui: my fellow pioneer of the HYPER THERAPY! (: *hugs* you eat too! thanks for being so nice to talk to and stuff!

and now COUNCIL! just joined so not that much for this year. but still SPIRIT.US! ALL THE BEST FOR 2005! especially out to CSI. ahhh my funkay com- its our first year next year!
michy: thanks for being so hyper while still being serious and mature and a born leader! you're gonna go far girl.
and also to sarah and jesslyn! and to carolyn, siting and the others- thanks for being such nice seniors!
and to all my fellow elects! carolyn audrey jiaen chenmeng jiayi vivian shimin sarah rachel (lim)our first year! let's go for it!

and now out to all the different people i've met- thanks so much to you guys too. like the people from my lsc group, esp yi ming and becky. psgls esp silin, tian and the others. my juniors from 11 and 12, especially charissa (thanks for that cap during that choral night rehearsal!) chan yi, liann, yuechin, claire (my mortal!), sarah, joanna and all the others. jiayou for sec2! you all are some of the nicest juniors out! and rmbr we're here if you ever need help. and people i've meet on duty, like catherine. jin, for the randomness. peaceout (:

and everyone else, all the people who've made it all better somehow with a message or a smile or a wave
(:

CHRISTMAS!

2004-12-24T05:24:00.000-08:00

IT'S CHRISTMAS EVE!
CAN YOU FEEL THE LOVEEEEEEE!
IF YOU CAN'T, then GO READ THE FIRST LINEEEE!
(:

I LOVE CHRISTMAS!

one day i am determined to have a WHITE CHRISTMAS! and scratch that 'merry xmas' and 'love +peace' in SNOW instead of SAND at bishan park! (wenrui, jolyn, ailin and me were there this morning!)

all of you go have a VERYVERYVERYVERYVERY
MERRY CHRISTMAS!

PRAY FOR PEACE ON EARTH IN OUR TIME!
and go think about THE MEANING OF CHRISTMAS!
(without all the commercialised nonsense *grumbleVISATREESandHITACHI DECO alongorchardrd and STUPIDMATERIALISTIC SONGSgrumblegrumblegrumble*)

and SPREAD THE LOVEEEEEE! pour it into EVERYTHING YOU DO ALL YEAR ROUND!

and i love you ALL! all you people who've been there this year and made it all WORTH IT SOMEHOW!

(and APOLOGIES FOR INCOHERENCE! it's ALLOWED TODAY!)

23rd

2004-12-23T05:39:00.000-08:00

CHRISTMAS IS COMING!

i love my cca. so. badly! nylongdistance!
the outing rocked. but it was so sad cos it was basically goodbye. and i'm going to miss my sec4 seniors and of course my genie.
so a big thanks to you guys for being there for us these past two years. chinyen- you rocked as a captian. sharon- you're the sweetest senior out. honestly! weiwei- thanks for being there for us/me kat maltilda siyou yueting thanks for adding all that life into trainings
and genie.
my 11ner 13ner tracker! ready told you everything so i'm not gonna repeat it here. but once again, a big thanks and *hugs*. you know i love you darl! ( as a side note, STOP TAGGING NONSENSE CAN. getting worse than sawah!and keep updating!) best of luck at nus high schl. go show them the ny ld spirit (:
TRAILBLAZERS. WE LEAVE THE TRACK CHARRED.

registration duty today- felt like exhibit A. but felt slightly better cos some parents asked me questions in chinese! and didn't do the whole 'omg you can speak chinese' thing. *hackcough TAKENOTICEJOY*.

was thinking today. and today is basically a coldplay day. i was going to expound on my profound reflections on coldplay's music. *my gosh, that cough IS getting bad isn't it?* but then it got so angsty! therefore. but COLDPLAY STILL ROCKS. (:

and SPREAD THE LOVE! FOR EVERYTHING! IN EVERYTHING!
((:

20th dec

2004-12-20T04:41:00.000-08:00

i am feeling really stoned right now. and i'm freaking out while feeling like i'm daoing people by accident. so if you're trying to talk to me, sorry!

AHH. i feel stressed. school's starting and there's a hundred and one things to be done. k i better go start soon. just some stuff first.

long d! rmbr tomorrow! anything check with me or joy! and come! if anyone doesn't come without valid reasons i'm going be veryy angry. if you don't know sharon's add then ask me. or just come along tmr and you shall see. (:
pple coming on the 28th! go get your gag gifts! and tell me/jan if you guys are coming or not!
theatresque! we need to go do our proposal. or to put it another way. we are in dire need of a meeting soon before school starts.
people interested in mpp! i have absolutely no idea what we're supposed to be doing, but we do need at least a team.
training this morning- it was a time trial! ailin and wenrui were just back. joy's legs were bad. it was 4km.
yeah.
don't know what ms tan thought of the run though. 19.59. still so upset about xcountry. urhh.
then springcleaning the sac. thankews carolyn and michy!
and i've decided that domestic chores are the most boring things in the world, christmas carols that go along the lines of 'i want everything' should be banned, hong lou meng is yet another boring thing, that one day i want a white christmas, and that we should all have more time. and i am scared that i'm falling for manufactured pop. haha. amazing relevations. bet you never knew!

that time

2004-12-18T03:43:00.000-08:00

we have the cash, we have the drugs, we have the science-
but do we have the will?
-- bono
we are the generation.
if not us, then who?

you know, it's the end of the year.
and suddenly you think. what've i actually done this year?
and you realise. nothing much. haven't done anything.
it's the time of the year when you just feel so urgh.
and depressed and stuff.

and the year's gone. again. and there's still no time.

18th

2004-12-18T01:04:00.000-08:00

okay i haven't been updating. many apologies!
1. bangkok=choas.
BUT IN BANGKOK.
I FOUND
HIM!
he's THE ONE!
okay... so he's been dead for ages. and he's communist.
BUT STILL. CHE GUEVARA! THE rebel!
THE REBEL!
i should put his picutre on my icon! and then i shall have an icon as my icon!

haha k nvm.

2. JOIN THEATRESQUE. ALL OF YOUUUUUU. I MEAN IT. and help us do iUMBRELLAS! and if you dooo, you will then own part of that theatre that CHIA PO LINN now owes us. YES FO. RMBR THAT. TEN YEARS. IN THE HEART OF TOWN. (rigth jan? :P fear the combined power of me and jan!)

3. i am greatly SADDENED cos there is no crosscountry next year. at least not for ny. >< it sucks so bad. esp for my batch after last year! we were aiming for top four after that compt, and then nationals came and all those schools came out of nowhere. sigh. i mean come on. we're long dist. crosscountry! grhh. all cos of the stupid 3 month thing with the jcs, xcntry is pushed back, and by then the national junior and the SPH relay have all started.

4. I LOVE MY COM! I LOVE CSIIIII! keep it up everyone! and jiayou out to all of council!

5. I LOVE TRAINING TOO! (: AND LONG DIST!

6. AND THE HYPER THERAPY IS GOOOD. very much so!

7. an advanced MERRRY CHRISTMAS!

8. JAN AND ME WALKED TO THE BEACH! and then we took shells and got sand stuck in our sandals! haha. and we found shells like THE ZEN SHELL. and the scary BUTTERFLY one. and there's a sign that says 'beware of falling coconuts'. haha. and the BEACH IS BEING CONSTUCTED. EVERYWHERE'S BEING TORN DOWN/BUILT UP. >< i mean it's fine as it is! like the botanical gardens! so when we run the orchard route it's urgh. (OH WE RUN TO ORCHARD DURING TRAINING BTW!) JAN RMBR! GAG PRESENTS! ((: evil grin. haha.

yep. that's about it. OH WAIT. TERRY PRATCHETT IS SELLING OUT I SWEAR. >< GOING POSTAL HAS... CHAPTERS. HE'S TURNED. *wails*

DREAMING OF A WHITE CHRISTMAS!

(:

2004-12-08T17:09:00.000-08:00

[edit . it wasn't deleted. but it looked like it was!]
MY POST WAS DELETED!
ANYWAY, AS I WAS SAYING, I BELIEVE I HAVE BEEN ANGSTING. WHICH IS BAD.
THEREFORE, WE SHOULD ALL BE HYPER AND START TYPING IN CAPS. AND LAUGH A LOT. AND CHASE AWAY DEPRESSION. YES.

YOU SEE. HYPER THERAPY.
RIGHT SUHUI! LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUU!
(:

8th

2004-12-08T16:30:00.000-08:00

i'm not just some toy for you to use and throw away. i'm just so fed up of being used. and fed up with myself for letting this happen. fed up with this situation and fed up with being fed up and having to think about this so much.

i don't really want to say anything else about this. not like it's going to make a difference.

I figured you were acting out your part
Once again, we're playing off emotion
Which one of us will burn until the end?

--new found glory. all downhill from here.

Here...here I am again
And I'm starin at these same four walls
Alone again
And now all the colors blend

...

I, I guess promises are better left unsaid...yeah

--ashlee simpson. love makes the world go round.

the irony.

8th

2004-12-08T04:41:00.000-08:00

i fear that i have been ANGSTING. which is BAD.
HYPER THERAPY:
1. talk to a friend. who is , preferably, HYPER and HAPPY. if she isn't, then still talk to her about stuff.
2. get to the point when you're REALLY CAN'T CARE ABOUT WHATEVER IT WAS.
3. START TYPING IN CAPS LIKE THIS! USE LOTS OF '!' AND LAUGH A LOT! LIKE HAHAHAHAHAHAHAA.
4. YES. GET HYPERRRR!

as you can see, it helps depression and ANGST.
RIGHT SUHUI! LOVE YOUUU!
(:
and NY TRACK ROCKS!

7th dec

2004-12-07T01:15:00.000-08:00

track camp yesterday! it rocked. NY TRACK AND FIELD!
i'm suffering from camp over load though. right ailin? haha had this urge to shout out responses and run as a group everywhere. council camp has drilled some stuff into me!
video analysis first. and i discovered that my arm movement is bad. very bad. and fell in love with the pro-ness of some of the trackers!
after that it was preparation for the sec four item (: lunch- we were split into groups to play and my group was so saddd! we only found 3 dishes out of 10! we were going to make up for it in the amazing race but there was a mess up in the clues so we couldn't continue the game haha. but we were the first group to finish the telematch. haha i think that the water games were just an excuse to get a water fight started.
dinner, trying to get joy to eat. to my long-d captain: really appreciate what you do and you're really a great captain BUT PLEASE FOR GOODNESS SAKE don't put everything on hold like EATING and SLEEPING to get stuff done. we're here for a reason! give us stuff to do! but anyway. just want to say a big thankew for everything.
then it was the farewell items. some were hilarious haha. and then some of it was so touching. and i love the long-d item!
then came debrief. but cos it was late, there couldn't be an events group sharing >< and i missed the target setting exercise we had last year.
i'm going to miss all my seniors so much. SENIORS. YOU GUYS ROCK. CHINYEN WEIWEI SHARON MATILDA SIYOU YUETING KAT. thankew SO MUCH for being with us and everything all this time. and ALL THE BEST! COME BACK AND TRAIN WITH US (:
GENIE is LEAVING *whinewhine* haha genie argh going to miss you so much. 'whinewhinepleadplead'.
i am DETERMINED to have a long dist outing before the 21st. and a proper farewell for long d when most of our 7 seniors are here! CHIN YEN KAT and SHARON weren't there!

but anyway, nytrack always. keep the spirit alive. (:

Well its 9pm and you still haven't called me back
And if I try again I think youll feel like you under attack
I dont think I can take it
I dont think I can make it
I just want this to go away

Trying to be someone that you know your not
It gets harder everyday
All the lonely days
There's no one left to love
You wish life would go away

Now its 2am and im pacing around on the floor
I wait for you to come home but you never come walk through thatdoor
Now im trying to fake it
I just cant seem to shake it
I just want this to go away

I know one day ill get through this
I know one day we'll be done
I know one day ill find a way
To see you

Ashlee Simpson - Harder Everyday

5th dec

2004-12-05T01:57:00.000-08:00

NYSC ROCKS!!!
and so does COUNCIL CAMP!

back from camp-i ache all over and my voice is like totally gone!
and it's all so worth it! after 3 days of being challenged physically and mentally feel so much part of everything and full of that love and passion for council!
jia you out to council! we're gonna rock. think of all we've gone through and keep it in us!
and to all elects! WE'LL DO IT!

30th nov

2004-11-29T18:28:00.000-08:00

trying to keep things in perspective about everything.
thanks out to everyone who listens to my crap haha especially like sarah *hugz* yep. its okay somehow .

random lyrics from all over the albums
U2:
"City Of Blinding Lights"
The more you see the less you know
The less you find out as you grow
I knew much more then than I do now
Neon heart, day-glow eyes
The city lit by fireflies
They're advertising in the skies
And people like us
And I miss you when you're not around
I'm getting ready to leave the ground
Oh you look so beautiful tonight...

miracle drug

want to trip inside your head
Spend the day there...
To hear the things you haven't said
And see what you might see
I want to hear you when you call
Do you feel anything at all?
I want to see your thoughts take shape
And walk right out
Freedom has a scent
Like the top of a new born baby's head
The songs are in your eyes
I see them when you smile
I've had enough I'm not giving up
On a miracle drug
Of science and the human heart
There is no limit
There is no failure here sweetheart
Just when you quit...

our lady peace
All For You

A suburban man at my door
But I don’t think I’ll let him in

He wants discipline
discipline and control over the way I live
He wants the best for me
An old school philosophy
So I can’t turn my back on him
He's a part of me
He’d buy me anything
But I just need a friend

It’s all for you
You’ve got me where you want
It’s all for you
Just stop breaking my heart
You’re the blood
I’m the seed and
It's all that I need
You’ve got me where you want
It’s all for you
You’ve got me, oh you've got me

Jack Kerouac on the road
And in my head
I need relevance, intelligence
A new tattoo and a lot more sex
Broken families are the new enemies
And you will not make up for this
This suburban man, he wants discipline

But I just need a friend

and ashlee simpson sounds pretty good so far.

27th nov

2004-11-27T04:20:00.000-08:00

HOW TO DISMANTLE AN ATOMIC BOMB!
u2!
they rock. and THE EDGE AND BONO HAVE CHEMISTRY! all the tracks are like omg!
((:

and our lady peace has a really nice album! yesh fo i shall take good care of it and water it everyday and give it LOTS of afternoon sun!

this week- open house on thurs.
training on friday! we were running in the rain! first formal training in what seemed like ages (:
next week- council camp!

ANYONE WANT TO DO SYDA/ MPP NEXT YEAR? singapore youth dramatists award. SCRIPTS! (NEZZY! what about our theatre thing!) or moot parliment project! (:

23rdnov

2004-11-23T05:20:00.000-08:00

today rocked. supposed to have training in the morning but there was only wenrui and me. so we decided, after drills, to give up on training for once, and go play badminton. well we would have, but i couldn't find the shuttlecocks. haha. so we did lots of RANDOM things. (: like tag lame things! and watched the matrix. (: love ny long d.

tonight i was feeling all angsty and stuff. and then i started talking to jan. and finally managed to get myself to do what i'ld been trying to get myself to do. which is, in essence, to not get so upset by something so small. its just that there's something about this whole situation that is so. irritating. and i know its my fault. and really. maybe if i could understand it it would be better.

THANKEWS JAN.
*hugz*

to add to my love of rock list:
travis.
our lady peace.
and jimmy eat world.

sarah praise chorus rocks so badly. you have great taste girl (:

crimson and clover
over and over
don't don't don't let start
why did we ever part,
kickstart my rock n rollin heart
i'm on my feet
i'm on the floor
i'm good to go
-praise chorus.

21st nov

2004-11-20T16:50:00.000-08:00

went for tech sym on friday. i pity those presenting after the interval cos all of NY exited during the interval(: hehe.

then it was the class lunch! (i was traumatised by jo and sarah on the bus down to ps. *glares*)
after that watched the incredibles! with jan, fo, nez, lysh, and xin. we were squeezing 6 pple onto 5 seats cos xin ordered her ticket late. so her seat was empty (: haha. the incredibles was so cute!
finally group trainings are starting!(: love long dist! yep so thursday and saturday had training.

[i've been falling in love with rock all over again- oasis, the red hot chili peppers, coldplay and U2. i was walking home after training on saturday and it was such a coldplay-ish day. all cold and grey and thought-provoking (: tell me your own politick (coldplay)

There are many things that I would like to say to you
but I don't know how
- oasis, wonderwall
reflects so much about us and how clumsy we and our words and actions are. so many people, all our friends do so much for us each day, but we just can't seem to show them what we mean...
The world's still spinnin' 'round, we don't know why
Why, why, why, why.]

17th

2004-11-17T04:35:00.000-08:00

[tag board is now screwing up. what fun!
i love sarah! even if she makes NO SENSE on my tagboard! haha *hugz!* she's there for me to talk to ((: and she has GOOD TASTE in music! hehe!]

How many special people change?
How many lives are livin' strange?
Where were you while we were gettin' high?

Slowly walkin' down the hall;
Faster than a cannonball.
Where were you while we were gettin' high?

Someday you will find me caught beneath the landslide
In a champaign supernova in the sky.
Someday you will find me caught beneath the landslide
In a champaign supernova, a champaign supernova in the sky.

Wake up the dawn and ask her why
We dream a dream. She never dies.
Wipe that tear away, now, from your eye.

Slowly walkin' down the hall;
Faster than a cannonball.
Where were you while we were gettin' high?

Someday you will find me caught beneath the landslide
In a champaign supernova in the sky.
Someday you will find me caught beneath the landslide
In a champaign supernova, a champaign supernova..

'Cause people believe
That they're gonna get away for the summer,
But you and I will never die.
The world's still spinnin' 'round, we don't know why.
Why, why, why, why.

How many special people change?
How many lives are livin' strange?
Where were you while we were gettin' high?

Slowly walkin' down the hall;
Faster than a cannonball.
Where were you while we were gettin' high?

Someday you will find me caught beneath the landslide
In a champaign supernova in the sky.
Someday you will find me caught beneath the landslide
In a champaign supernova, a champaign supernova..

'Cause people believe
That they're gonna get away for the summer,
But you and I will never die.
The world's still spinnin' 'round, we don't know why.
Why, why, why, why.

How many special people change?
How many lives are livin' strange?
Where were you while we were gettin' high?
We were gettin' high. (x9)
CHAMPAIGN SUPERNOVA
oasis

16th nov

2004-11-16T01:55:00.000-08:00

i typed out an entry and then my net screwed up on me! ): so this is shorter
haha oh well.
IRS IS OVER! FINALLY! after like.. OVER ONE YEAR! haha so i shall dedicate this space to RACHEL! my irs partner. for putting up with me chasing you this lonnnnnng while, and for always being so happy and cheering me up! we did it! *hugz* love ya! we shall start forgettting about irs now! and nxt year, onto greater things! haha mpp! ((:
other stuff today was amc. and a lot of pple ponned! haha oh well.
we're going to have a group training! finally! yay! i. hate. training. by. myself. really.
i'm starting to love my com! csi is gonna rock. we're new, so its up to us to show them that we can do it ((: i really like what we do (haha sac!)
HOW TO DISMANTLE AN ATOMIC BOMB! NOVEMBER 22ND! ((: u2 rocks! i will get that album

it's everything i wish i didn't know.
except you give me something i can feel
- vertigo

8thnov

2004-11-08T01:49:00.000-08:00

our irs board may actually turn out pretty! (:
hopefully!
i'm tentatively in csi (: but it might change after council camp. i think hrc/csi suit meand i really like both of those coms so since i'm in csi - ((: haha i suppose if i remain in csi i'll always be thinking what would happen if i had been sent to hrc. and the same if i'm sent to hrc in the end.
(:

and (once again) i want some one to train with me!

7th nov

2004-11-07T03:18:00.000-08:00

[this is actually an edit. grhh. i typed out stuff but for some reason blogspot has screwed up on me and it was ALL DELETED. therefore i must retype. grrhhh. you see i am in no mood to do so.]
nez me and rachel are drowning in irs together. ):
WHO WANTS TO TRAIN WITH ME? (: i don't want to train by myself for the next two weeks- its so borrrinnnggg to do so and there's no motivation. haha
choral night rocked! went everyday. (:
didn't apply for ip. congrats to those who got into ip/bsp!

I'M AT A PLACE CALLED VERTIGO! hehe u2's new album is coming out! i want 'HOW TO DISMANTLE AN ATOMIC BOMB!'
~LIGHTS GO DOWN. IT'S DARK, THE JUNGLE IS . YOUR HEAD CAN'T RULE YOUR HEART A FEELING SO MUCH STRONGER THAN A THOUGHT!

3rd nov

2004-11-02T20:34:00.000-08:00

(before i go do irs i MUST blog about CHORAL NIGHT! ((: )
but wait! first lit seminar- given how it was REALLY rushed and we REALLY didn't have enough time to prepare properly, it didn't go that badly! (: thankews to ALL who helped out! and i got this email from a tcher who watched it and she liked it! YAY! we're not that bad after allll!
and HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOY! even though your birthday was on monday (:
CHORAL NIGHT ROCKS!!! 2/13 I 'M SO HAPPY- WE DID IT! we never thought we could, and we actually considered pulling out all together, but in the end WE DID IT! and after all those long long long faces from mr tang, and him shaking is head at us all the time and saying we have an 80% chance of being kicked out and the best compliment being 'it wasn't that bad a perfomranc' at the morning rehearsal itself -HE FINALLY COMPLIMENTED US! omg i can barely believe it! (not to our faces duh but to the next mornings performers. 13ners if you haven't heard about this yet ask genie or eve or leen or gwen or me!) *HUGZ* maybe we haven't worked together that well, but we still managed to pull through with OUR ITEMS! 2nd variety and sheng ri!
i was a guy in both (: heh heh heh. so fun! but i doubt lysh leen and me will ever be allowed to forget that we played the roles we did! and the fans were so bouncy! eve and nez got these huge eyebags hehe...and weiwei was such a cute nerd! and gwen hanny xin were super cute as p1s! and haha now i have hanny as a daughter! and then 2nd variety! haha at least they didnt laugh when markov died. well for a choral night audience that's good.
haha i shall go every night! i went yesterday and felt so sad cos the 2nd night's performances were way better than the first. the sec1s especially. still room for improvement for them though. the mcs were way better the 2nd night too (: and 2/7 was PROOOO!!! haha their performances rocked (: and i was getting really upset with the audience during their chinese one cos a lot of pple were laughing at the bit where they went on and on and suddenly burst out before continuing and it was really creepy and well done! oh well. the coordination was really good and the play in general was REALLY NICE! their english one was so sweet! and grace was so cute as the fairy! haha macho are you? and i liked 2/8's english one. it was DARK and BLACK comedy-ish and reminded me of tiptoe through the tombstones which rocked (: it had that edge to it. 'nothing comes from nothing'(: their cl one was cute too. 2/11 did a gd job translating mov into cl for a 15min play (: el one was interesting.
choral night choral night choral night haha ((: shall go again tonight!

(if you're not interested in politics do not read beyond here. american elections today. GO KERRY! get bush OUT! no blood for oil. if bush gets in again we're probably all headed for destruction or smtg. another 4 years of pointless wars that just flame antiamericanism and hence increase terrorist activites. GRHHH. but what's worying is that kerry might not be all that different from bush. and then we're in big trouble no matter what happens.) peace out.

29th 0ct

2004-10-29T04:07:00.000-07:00

realised i haven't been blogging- cos between everything there just hasn't been time. everything's been super rushed. (i REFUSE to fall sick. i willl not fall sick.) haha oh well. irs, lit sem (tmr! *dies*)and of course choral night. gah.
so first to answer everyone:
sarah: hii! haha (:
lysh: yay the sleepover rocked! *hugz* cept the church bits. i rediscovered why i hate church. heehee
xin: ICESKATING! ((:yeah
sammi: my twin! *hugz* you musn't forget too! i'll miss you too- love ya!
gua: you're so cute! yesh we shall- despite all the odds our drama SHALL work (:so sad you can't be there tmr... nvm jiayou with your theory exam!
yue-er: haha you're shooo cute! and xin: look poser can already (: HEEHEE
wen rui's vice-captain of track! and ailin's secretary! YAY! love you guys loads- *hugz* rock on! and joy's long d capt! congrats to all the track exco (: ny track rocks!
gah eve just dropped out of lit sem cos she's sick. so jan's going to take over the suitor role. ARGH. everything's falling to bits.
and today was the last day of school, btw. but it didn't seem like that at all. this whole year's seemed so rushed, that none of it has seemed the way its supposed to be. still deciding if that's good or not.
choral night is screwed. chinese is okay(funfunfun!) but english is really screwed. we're going to get laughed off stage. for the WRONG reasons.
and we're on first night. so we'll probably be kicked out that morning.
mabe there's no point in going into anything now, but if any sec ones are reading this- do NOT do sci-fi for your choral night next year. grhhh.
after choral night is over i shall then do a goodbye blog. so many pple leaving. but i'm in no mood to say goodbye to all of them now. its so sad that next year so many things will change, and so many people either leaving ny or won't be in my class. and so many good friends may grow further apart. and i'm gonna miss them all.
there's this super nice oasis song. must put lyrics up here some time
stop crying your heart out
edit: grhhh. i hate it when people whine. oh you poor put upon person. oh and i'm such a hypocrite.

xcntry

2004-10-21T04:23:00.000-07:00

yay! cross-country was today. it's over! it didn't rain during the race. it rained after everything was over. the irony! haha...
wenrui was first, ailin second, sammi third, me fourth, mag fifth, grace sixth! the whole cross-cntry team! and all the long distance was in top twenty! (except gav and sara who weren't running.) genie was 18th and lysh was 20th=)) *hugz* track rocks!
afterwards we tried to play this joke on ms tan. we were going to call her and tell her something like "we're really sorry ms tan. but we don't know what happened. suddenly the bballers and softballers and netballers became super good this year. it's all crazy. we tried but ... " and i wanted to do it WITHOUT mentioning any positions. wahahaha... but her phone was off cos she was at a chem practical. so we tried mr pedro instead. but then peggy, cos peggy was the one calling, freaked out and shoved the phone at all of us. but none of us (duh) dared to. so joy (senior) helped us! haha sho cute.
i came at 7.15 to warm up and stuff with gen and lysh. was wearing ny pe shorts that cut into my leg. gah. next year shall wear fbts. haha.. met jolyn (junior) who warmed up with us. she was second! first was eunice- the very fast girl from softball. juniors - must jiayou and train hard! you guys can do it! =) met ailin, peggy, wenrui and suhui later on to stretch and do stridings and drills=))
then we ran! i think my timing deproved. think i could have run faster. oh well. the sec 1s timings seem faster. there was this weird song going through my head when i was running- a pretty old song by shaggy. don't ask me why. i don't know either!
after we were done we were cheering like crazy for other pple. =) natish was 14th! and she was so cute- she ran in her skirt! she was bouncing up and down afterwards like she wasn't tired at all! for sec 3s (sec 4s weren't running! *sniff*) joy was first! a councillor (non-track) was second. then the rest of the seniors *hugz* shizhen fell! poor thing...
at the prizepresentaion we cheered somemore! we gave wenrui a standing ovation when she recieved her prize! =) the trophies look fake though haha. 2/1 was first! congrats to them - 5pple in top 20! wenrui, ailin, peggy, suhui, rachel! we took a longd photo afterwards with grace's camera.=) but we couldn't find sammi!
after that gen and lysh came to my house before leaving for fo's to do lit seminar. lit seminar was fun! haha we were doing this recording thing and it was so funny-FO I WANT THE CD WITH OUR OWN SOUNDTRACK! haha... jan nat qian gwen fo were there. qian is now portia's father! and before we left, jan and me left fo a special recording! wahahahahaha. but we apologised for it! hehe.
hmpf. i don't think my mom will let me go to suhui's party. gah. but still can go for the sleepover! yay! they're trying to get me into church. i bet they are. they want me to do to TWO CHURCHES in ONE WEEKEND. i haven't gone to a church since, what, p6? and i'm happy with that state of affairs.
hmm genie was a very in-ter-es-ting tagboard with very interesting messages.. wheeheehee .
k shalll go back to IRS. gah. chel's electric has tripped! and i am left without an irs partner!

20/10

2004-10-20T02:37:00.000-07:00

supposed to be doing work now. cross-country tmr. jiayou to everyone, and pray for rain! haha.to do: a load of stuff to do for irs, finish up lit seminar script and do the prep for the psgl thing.

anyway, rest of the papers came back today. eoys have screwed up so many things. they're so depressing. so: summing up for eoys. i suppose i should be happy i didn't fail or anything, but its always your own expectations that you try to meet. and i didn't -so yah.
science and geog were urgh. especially geog. i think everyone was shocked about geog. and really upset. *hugz brit, leen, eve, lysh, xin, genie, jan, jo and everyone else*... i just don't understand what we did wrong. if other centres are doing much better on this combined paper, then there has to be something wrong in the schl- whether in the teaching, marking or students. and i don't believe that we didn't work hard enough for it. i mean, we all studied hard for this thing. what's even more upsetting is that we couldn't go and show her what should be remarked. surely the purpose of checking of marks is to ensure that we've been marked fairly.
science was tough, and so we were more or less prepared for results. but the geog paper- at the time it seemed okay. and now it's just like turned around and whacked us in the face.
history was k. didn't do as well as last year though. that seems weird oh well..
*patpat weiwei!* weiwei has low self-esteem.. we must raise it- GO ZIWEI! =)) you see- you did super well for your eoys after all! NO MORE SUICIDAL TENDANCIES. haha...

listening to the song sarah sent me again. its nice.

Jimmy eat world –praise chorus
Are you going to live your life wondering,
Standing in the back, looking around?
Are you gonna waste your time thinking
How you've grown up
Or how you missed out?
T-T-T-T-Things are never going be the way you want
Where's it gonna to get you acting serious?
T-T-T-T-Things are never gonna be quite what you want
Even at twenty-five you got to start sometime
I'm on my feet
I'm on the floor
I'm good to go
All i need is just to hear a song i know
I wanna always feel like part of this was mIne
I wanna fall in love tonight
Are you gonna live your life, standing in the back looking around?
Are you going to waste your time?
Got to make a move or you'll miss out
S-S-S-S-Someone's gonna ask you what it's all about
Stick around nostalgia won't let you down
S-S-S-S-Someone's gonna ask you what it's all about
What are you going to have to say for yourself?
I'm on my feet
I'm on the floor
I'm good to go
All i need is just to hear a song
I knowI wanna always feel like part of this was mIne
I wanna fall in love tonight
Crimson and clover
Over and over
Crimson and clover
Over and over
(Our house, in the middle of the street)
(Why did we ever meet,)
(Starring in my rock n roll fantasy)
Crimson and Clover
Over and Over
Crimson and Clover
Over and Over
(Don't don't don't let start
Why did we ever part,)
(Kickstart my rock n rollin heart)
I'm on my feet
I'm on the floor
I'm good to go
So come on Davey,
sing me something that I know
I want to always feel like part of this was mIne

19 october

2004-10-19T05:23:00.000-07:00

RUNNING= THERAPY= (: heehee! went for training today( can you telllllll?) quite slack... we went RUNNING in the RAIN! and we decided to all catch colds so we don't have to run on thursday for cross country! =) finally saw all the others! *hugz * haha no one wants to run on thurs... jiayouz out to everyone though (let's all hope for rain!)
the only junior there was jolyn! all the other sec 1s weren't there. hmm... slackers. even yue chin didn't come. why soooo slack? haha u guys shld know by now thatt training doesnt stop cos of rain...
(the origin of the equation) therapy cos it helps u forget abt exams. and results below expectations. gah. el, cl e lit and math are back. it cld have been a lot worse but should have been a lot better. science, history and geog back tmr. and in the ends it's your own standards and expectations that you want to meet.
hmm sawah just sent me a nice song by jimmy eat world =) called praise chorus. sawah sends me nice songs *hugz* ...* is lit seminar-ing and irs-ing* k better get back to it. shall type more when i feel like it =)

17th

2004-10-17T20:06:00.000-07:00

today was super fun! went iceskating with nez and lysh =) and the rink was full of pro people doing really cool stuff that made us feel really bad. and we had forgotten how to skate but we did in the end. and i didn't fall =) hehe but i didn't manage to go backwards either- nez is pro at going backwards! (lysh and genie- we must do that next week at the sleepover (:)
i realised i hadn't gone out with nezzy for agesssssss. so sad... must go out with her again before next year starts and she disappears into ip. and now she's off to madrid- BYE NEZZY! have fun! come back in time for choral night! go get your spanish cds! =) *hugz and boing* thanks for the music!

( will not think aboutthe papers that are coming back tmr.)
papers back tmr. argh.
evanscence is good for stress relief. very good. oh yeah. they rock.

16th oct

2004-10-16T18:00:00.000-07:00

hey... (i decided that i shall type out the good stuff first so that the nice stuff won't be affected by the bad stuff) yesterday was nice, but today everything went down hill. grhh. but as i said, FIRST:

hii nezzy! and thankews again for hosting the image :) dont get too depressed k? hi weiwei! dao them all i tell you- all the awful mcps *patpat*. hey xin! i really like that pic. hey lala! hey sarah! *hugz* love you too. OH i forgot to tell you i saw someone today! haha you know who right? she was with the others for the phototaking. GENIE! linked you already:) i'm so sorry about it. and how can i do that- tell me k? hi yue er! haha you're so cute... must link me too :). hi hh! yay thankew. hey gua! *poke you cos i like you :P*. hey sammii! *hugz* hi hanny! well. hanny is too cute for her own good :) *patpatpat*

yesterday . ( or, let it snow *BOING*).
had to go in early to for irs. that reminds me- must do irs. then lit seminar! fun, but yeah like i said before, really rushed. haha we started singin xmas chorals. don't ask me how or why :) and nez and me were doing the *boing*thing. so it was 'let it snow *boing* let it snow *boing* let it snoooowww *boingboing*' :)) then choral night. wasn't so bad yesterday. mr tang is freaky. freaky but really cool. then went home, and my parents let me go over to fo's place to watch momento! well not really fo's house as such, but a place that her parent's own. and my father missed the condo so at first we wandered into this super ulu place and saw a monkey! haha. lysh, eve, nez, nat, and (duh) fo were there. but lysh left before me and eve came at 9 smthg. and after that, it turned out that her father had forgotten to bring the disk! haha. but i felt real bad cos he went all the way back to their other house to get it. he's really nice :) wish i could have stayed over, but had to get up early today. momento was cool. very interesting. yay i finally watched it. and lysh and me were trying to spot the family resemblence btwn her bros and fo. haha the wuliaoness... oh and eve, once she came, saw one of the photos and said 'oh fo i didnt know your brother was so ugly!' and then fo was like.. isnt there someone in the bathroom (which was right next to us. ) then she asked. and the reply was 'yeah, me'. it was her bro! then eve was like 'oh we're looking at a pic of bill gates! so fo, is bill gates your brother?' haha...

today
got up early for the school brochure thing. i felt so bad, cos today's the first training of the preparing for x cntry season... and i miss the very first session. i mean what kind of an attitude does that show right? sigh. later i must go run. i miss training with all the others. haven't seen wen rui and ailin for ages. the brochure thing was... an experience? really weird. a lot of waiting. it was in the sac, and we were so bored that we started watching stuff.. at first it was britney spears live in concert. yeah. we were that bored. :) and it was the best there okay... hah. later it was para para... haha.... met some nice pple there. during the thing itself my face felt like cracking and the smile felt really fake. its more or less a lot of waiting. you know they wanted me to pose with a guo zheng? ? haha i dont know anything abt it. luckily they ran out of time. the poor cover girls. when i left they were still there.
and choral night...(major rant ahead- skip the next para if you want. )
gah.first of all there was this awful parent who insulted lysh. and its just a shirt for pete's sake. *hugz* lysh. but anway. gah again. if you were there then you'ld know why the gah. its so depressing. i mean choral night just shows up what has been there all along. you guys know this. we all heard this this afternoon. and honestly. i think our english is screwed. but its not just that. it's the whole class thing. some people get me upset cos they're so proud and don't stop to think. and such hypocrites. and in saying that i'm a hypocrite too so why should i even deserve to say this? and i'm sorry if you think i don't deserve the role. i'm sorry. i know i'm not good, but i'm working on it okay? maybe some of you think that we wasted time today but personally i think that we waste more time rehearsing something bad. i know everyone says its too late, its too late. but what's the point? and i realise that i'm probably an exception and i apologise to the majority of the class that believes that second variety is a good idea. ive been an exception since the first discussion. okay. so democracy. so if you guys want to stick with this unless we have a major revamp we can't move forward. and i don't know why i'm saying this. maybe i'm hoping to get somewhere. gah. shall go and think of constructive suggestions. but i mean, i want major changes. and probably no one's gonna let that happen. it'll prob be too late. or i'll be told that it messes up too manythings. or smthg like that. haha.
feels so sad to say this on my 2nd entry. maybe its the cold i'm having. haha. well anyway.
I wanna fly
And never come down
...We never change do we
We never learn do we
...
Oh and I don't have a soul to save
Yes and I sin every single day
We never change do we
We never learn do we
edit: coldplay, we never change.

the first one!

2004-10-15T21:50:00.000-07:00

hey everyone! okay i've finally got my blog (YAY!) so yeah first thankews and hugz out to :
genie- for suggecting i get one (love ya)
jan- for helping me pick my address (and for implicitly telling me that my first choices were angsty and cliched *glares* i still say the other side and inbetween are NOT angst)
nezzy- for helping me host my image! =))
http://www.brushstroke.tv/peace.html- took one of your posters and edited it for the image. this site rocks i tell you. some of the posters are a bit.. err, but cool anyway. peaceout.

if i missed out anyone in the links i'm really sorry... just tell me- leave your traces on the tag board.

and now- exams are over! k so i'm like three days late. nvm. haha. i love the post exam period! but on the first day of no exams, fo and me had to go down to acsi for the lit seminar. and guess what. they didn't know we were coming even though our lit tchr said he would. gah. so we were stuck in the general office for like half an hour... :( but the lit tchrs there were so nice! yes fo we shall steal one for ny :)
lit seminar shld be fun- tough and super rushed, but fun too... yay sleepover this weekend with genie and lysh! 11-ners 13ners trackers- track rocks. can't wait for it!

yeah well i guess that's all - just come and tag! :) *hugz*